17-year-old Damian is struggling in his relationship with his girlfriend Emma. She would like to take it to the next level, but there's a problem: He is not attracted to her physically very much. When he thinks about boys, however, things are quite different. But is he really gay? And how is he supposed to find out without cheating on Emma?  He needs a sex toy – preferably one that's packaged anonymously so that his mother doesn't find out about it. He finds what he is looking for on an online marketplace: Emil, a guy his age, has just posted such a product – more or less as a joke. But as they start chatting, something develops between them that could turn everything upside down.  Authentic, full of empathy and humour, bestselling authors Marik Roeder, aka darkviktory, and Kostas Kind, both content creators and activists, tell a compelling story of discovering one's own sexuality and the challenges of coming out.