Sometimes a good offense is the only defense. We're out of options. We have no back-up. This is our fight to win or lose. So much hangs in the balance I can barely stand to think about it. I have four gorgeous, incredible boyfriends, a sister I love with my whole heart, and real friends for the first time in my life. I can't lose all of that. But the only way to end this is to take on a monster more powerful than any of us.