Iris Black There are moments in music when the crowd becomes part of the song and we all lose ourselves to the energy. I wanted to drown myself in the music. It became my escape and my savior.I thought success was what I wanted, but it only intensified my misery. Fame is a monster, and it ate me alive. I tried it all to get out of my head: sex, drugs, and rock and roll. I'm living the dream, but it only numbs the pain.Caspian came into my life like a storm, and I knew he'd leave the same way.We were two vessels made to fit. Chemistry woven in creation.There's no escape, there's no surrender.His Pretty Black forever.But he broke me and I don't know how to forgive him.Is it foolish to do it all again?To find our way back to the place it all began.I've mourned his leaving so many times, I don't have it in me to do it again.