When you find yourself widowed at the age of 31 with two small children, what do you do? A. Put on a black veil and live a life of semi-solitude with twelve cats B. Take up yoga and meditation to namaste the shit out of your anxiety attacks C. Join a church and devote your life to volunteer work and prayer while using the phrase, "This is all a part of God's plan" incessantly D. Put on a pair of black leather leggings and meet a boy at a bar who you will later discover has a wife and/or girlfriend Michelle chose D and then she documented her adventures in this gritty, tender and surprisingly humorous memoir about the places loss can take us. Follow her on forty-six of her most memorable and cringe-worth dates as she copes with the harsh reality of the modern social-media-infused dating scene and the inevitability of her insurmountable grief.